Friday Update

This is a post I don't want to write, but we need your prayers right now. I received a call a little while ago saying that the birthmother has already changed her mind. She misses her baby too much, which is understandable. I am very sad, of course, but I know that God is still in control of our adoption. Due to legalities, the birthmother will not be able to get her baby back until Monday. That leaves two and a half days for God to make His will clear. Many things lined up with this adoption and it was enough to make me feel confident that this was our baby. The social workers did not expect her to change her mind, but they can never know for certain. I trust the Lord in this situation, but I am not really sure how to pray right now. I just know I need to pray and I need you to pray as well. It doesn't feel right to pray for God to take a child from her mother, if her mother wants to raise her, so I cannot do that. So please just pray for us and pray also that the Lord will do whatever He has in mind to do and that His will be done in this situation. The social worker does not want us to get our hopes up, but since the birthmom can't get the baby back until Monday, she will have time to think over the weekend. Pray for her to have clarity of mind and realistic expectations as she thinks this through. Pray for God to speak clearly to her about what she should do and for her to have the strength to do whatever she needs to do. Parenting this child as a young unmarried woman takes strength too.

Pray for us as well. I am glad that we hadn't told the boys and gone to meet her. This is really hard, but that would have made it harder. Pray for God's comfort and peace. Pray for the Lord's will to be done in our family and that He will bring us the baby He has for us.

I know that as you read this, many of your hearts will break right along with mine, but I want to ask you not to call me right now. I need some time to process this. We will be ok (John is home today). We know that God has a plan for us, for this baby, for the birthmom, and for whatever baby He does have for us, and that He will bring His will to pass. Please just pray and we will do the same.




Lamentations 3:21-26

21 Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:

22 Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.

23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.

24 I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him."

25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him;

26 it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the LORD.